Fostering Friday

Fostering Fridays are all about my journey as a foster mom, how I feel about it, the highs and lows, and how it affects my family. And of course, hoping to increase awareness and prayer for this challenging and very rewarding ministry

These last two weeks have been a blur. My Grandpa has moved to Rehab, my Grandma is now settled in assisted living, we went to the orthodontist (and made an appointment for Ethan to get braces in August), we are planning and preparing to go on our missin trip to Eastern Oregon next Friday, celebrated the little baby's birthday, had a girls (and baby) only weekend while Ethan and Russ went camping, I dyed my hair from a box for the first time, had two visits with two different doctors for the babe (including a BUNCH of shots, boo) and ended the craziness with Bunko at Real Deals with my gal pals last night! Wild!  We are just sorting out how to make it feel like summer after being home together all year and the weather being so cold and weird. I think I need to go to the beach or camping to make it really feel like summer vacation. I have been BUSY!!!

I also just don't really know what to say about Fostering right now. I'm sad, and anxious for the next hearing. But I'm loving all the new things our sweet boy can do and how much fun he is. I don't want to get caught up in the emotions of what might be, I just want to enjoy making memories and providing growing experiences for this little life. We don't know how much time we'll have with this beautiful little guy, just the summer, or maybe much longer. It's hard not to know. I can't prepare. I really don't have to know either. The one thing that is really helping me stay in a healthy place mentally and not be consumed with the emotional roller coaster is scripture. Whenever I start feeling  like worrying, or feel sad about all the possibilities and how each one will effect our little man and us, I think about Phillipians 4:8.

"Finally, brethren, whatever is TRUE, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things."

None of the things that I can come up with in my mind are true. Because they haven't happened yet! What is true is that the baby is safely sleeping in his bed right now about to wake and have a sunshiny day with us. What is true is that we love him. The rest is all speculation. We don't know how this will turn out or how it will affect him. Only God knows that, and He doesn't want me to worry about it. I am just to lay my burdens at His feet and He will carry them for me. I am to obey and enjoy loving this precious life He's blessed us with for however long He sees is right. I am just to rest in His arms of love and believe that He is stronger than any circumstance. And I do. Please pray with us for God's best for our sweet baby and for God's peace for our family as we love him through this journey!